What is “Life”? Definitions from dictionaries: The course of existence or sum of experiences and actions that constitute a person’s existence. What do YOU think of “life”? How do you live it?
I’m in my teenage years and to me, I live in a life full of critics. In everything I do, there would always be someone to correct me, which I thought, trying to find faults in me, I felt as if the whole world was after me. I became worried, afraid of what people might think of me, I tried to run away and just forget about all of them. But then, they keep on haunting me, until I became so sick and tired of them that I didn’t bother to care about what they would say or whether they would talk about me anymore.
I kept on saying to myself, “You don’t need to bother about them Nabihah, they’re just trying to bring you down, break you into pieces”. Unfortunately, I was wrong, now I realize, my thoughts were the ones that has been shredding and eating myself from the inside. How embarrassed I was.
Before this, I thought everyone around me are just clowns trying to take over me, to my surprise, I was the clown, a joke in every possible way. I was trying to protect myself from the people that I ‘thought’ was my ‘enemy’, when in fact, they were the one that was actually protecting me. How foolish I was, trying to prove myself as an adult when I didn’t know a thing about it, I was in fact, acting like a child, when I should have acted like a young, matured lady.
I was fortunate to have taken some time thinking about what they’ve actually been trying to tell me, I finally came to a sense where I can finally see that all this time, instead of breaking me, they were actually trying to fix me into being a better person. My ego was the one apparently breaking me, instead of “listening” to their advice, I just listened to my heart, locking myself away from the people around me, from the world.
If your in this kind of situation, do me a favor and try to think about what’s best for you, instead of thinking about feeding your never-ending ego. Like they say, “life is like a box of chocolates,” it’s full of surprises, there’s no telling what will happen tomorrow.
As long as we’re still alive, there will always be someone bringing us down but they are still not as much as the ones that tries to fix us for the better, for our future. We just need to hold on and never give in.
Nabihah Zaid – Let me tell you a story, in a form of a dream. I don’t know why I have to tell it but I know what …